Need advice from my internet bros

[phantasmagorovich]

Mojoes sent.

[D.o.S.]

Positive vibes from the northeast as well.

[Haki]

i can only add my thoughts and prayers to those of the other folks here. i'd come and sit with you if i could. the most important thing for you to do now is take care of yourself so you'll be available to do what's needed. you've got to be sure to get sleep and eat something, even if you don't feel like it. otherwise your system will get out of whack in a big hurry and it'll fuck up your mental processes. even if you just eat, like toast, cheese sticks, and Gatorade, have something. similarly, if you're too anxious to sleep, get your doctor to give you some Valium or Klonopin or something. if they won't, go to an urgent care place or something. i don't mean to sound alarmist, but when you say "breakdown" i'm taking you seriously.

it sounds like your father would really benefit from talking with some kind of counselor about the anxiety as well; i don't know if they offer that, or if he's thought of it. i wish it washn't being so hard on all of you.

Quoting cause it's sound advice. Watching my father figure slowly rot away to cancer for over a year was the worst period of my life. Seeing family members breakdown because they didn't take care of themselves managed to make it worse. Especially on the old man as he had to watch it, knowing he was the cause, but unable to do a thing about it. Balance is ridiculously hard in these situations but find strength, support and even joy from your wife and kids and wherever you can (like flipping pedals if need be).