Record of Isolation Trip!!!!!

[THEBEERHAMMER]

So this thread is going to function as a record of the next couple years of my life in isolation. Ive decided that for the remainder of my education, I will make no attempt to make or accept new friends. For those of you that dont know, I currently have no friends. The only people in my life are my family and the people i speak to online. The reason for this is that, since ive lived in South Carolina (coming up on 10 years in august) I havent has a single healthy relationship with another person.

In fact, rather than simply being unhealthy, they often end dangerously. To date ive been....stabbed, mugged, beaten up by singles and multiples, maced (that was really fun), had guns go off in my face on multiple occasions, a girl attempted to hit me with a car, and i had a girl actually throw my gear (gretsch falcon, roland jc120, dwarfcraft shiva) OFF A FUCKING MOUNTAIN. Ive had broken bones, puncture wounds, bruises, a concussion, hearing damage, blah blah blah.

All these crazy incidents are direct responses to me cutting ties with people. Im not a vindictive guy, i dont fuck with people, i dont hurt people if i dont have to. Every time its the fucking same, friend or girlfriend starts getting crazy or strung out on drug of choice, i explain and cut ties, soon i get attacked. Either that or someone tries to kill themselves and i get hurt in the process.

I'm well aware that I am the common denominator in all of these incidents but believe me when i say that NOTHING like this shit ever happens anywhere else i am. Ive talked with best friends and girlfriends and even rivals from the past and they all say ive got kindof a charles manson thing going on. Either you hate me or you get caught up in me. I notice alot of friends adopting my mannerisms and modifying behavioral patterns to match mine more closely. If they are more than a year or two younger than i am they start to show off. If any of you that I've been friends with on facebook wonder why you never see any friends local to me, this is why. Either that or I'm.....wildly delusional and its probably unsafe for me to be running around.

Unfortunately, a friend in the...mental health field....has insisted that if I attempt this i will also have to include females...and i honestly agree with him. From this day until the day i leave this shithole I will not put my dick into anyone that i dont have a mature understanding with....which excludes anyone in the entire state.

So there, I;ve made the decision to leave as soon as i finish my education and save up some money, and untill then, im off people. This will serve as a log for my experiment. Ive decided to leave it on ILF as Ive forgotten my blog password and honestly this makes more sense. Its a hub for the majority of the people on the internet that I think could possibly give a shit about what i have to say.

I dont think this is any kind of art nor do I think im being noble. I just think this is the only thing i can do to insure that i make it out of this shithole in one piece, and i think the time spent on introspection will hopefully lend me clarity and bring me further alon on a path of self realization. You know when a girl tells you "I just need to be alone right now"? Well thats me. Only i actually mean i need to be alone. Also i have a dick.

Over the course of the next two or so years this will hopefully be a record of me learning about myself and becoming comfortable and learning to forgive the person i am inside. If you dont want to read it you dont have to. Thats why i started a thread. If you dont like what im doing or dont like me, thats fine, just say it in another thread. We can start our own seperate shitslinging thread. It will be fun.

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[D.o.S.]

For those of you that dont know, I currently have no friends.

Use more wizards and "weed!" in your personal branding.

[The Wood Wizard]

I did that once for about 2 years. was awesome. its how i learned 90 percent of all my woodworking skills and learned a lot about myself. go for it. Not getting laid only sucks for a little while. DOnt get me wrong, I got what I needed from the experience and now I screw like 3 times a day and its glorious, but it was worth it for me and things are much better now.