Why are you cooking?

[Jwar]

Bro. For muscular gains. As if there are any other kinds. Hah.

No but seriously. I eat for the gains.

[Chankgeez]

I sort of love you.

Love is a good, probably the best, reason to stay alive.
When you're really in love, the feelings of warmth and comfort you have won't erase the nothing, but it'll make you forget about it.
For a time.

Bro. For muscular gains. As if there are any other kinds. Hah.

No but seriously. I eat for the gains.

I can't stop saying "bro", bro. - Meathead Rob Lowe

[Jwar]

Bro! BRO BRO! what are you trying to say bro?

[PetZounds]

I stayed up all night because I don't exist and neither does time and night and day do not exist in equal nor opposite proportions but are simultaneous and synchronous phenomena forever ripping and tearing at each other as they streak across the sky looping back around again for no reason other than to remind us that we are one day closer to sweet, sweet release

Coffee, my jazzmaster, and getting packages in the mail are some of my favorite little escapes from my inexorable march toward death and decay into nothingness.

[kbit]

It's like, "MAN I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT THIS, but at least one day I'll be dead as fuck."
"ahhhh..."

+1. this is the best realization.

[backwardsvoyager]

It's like, "MAN I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT THIS, but at least one day I'll be dead as fuck."
"ahhhh..."

+1. this is the best realization.

so true. that realization basically cured depression for me. it's funny getting really worked up about something then doing a total 180 and realizing it doesn't mean anything.

What are some of your favorite ways of forgetting about the eternal nothing bearing down upon you?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bish%C5%8Djo_game

[rustywire]

When you own 5 DMMs, all arguments become irrelevant.
Sometimes a fella's just gotta stunt.

[PetZounds]

It's like, "MAN I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT THIS, but at least one day I'll be dead as fuck."
"ahhhh..."

+1. this is the best realization.

so true. that realization basically cured depression for me. it's funny getting really worked up about something then doing a total 180 and realizing it doesn't mean anything.

I think realizing how easy it would be for me to stop feeling everything and how meaningless everything is has worsened my anxiety rather than make it better.
I'm not saying I'm gonna blow my brains out, but I'm also not saying I think I'd really be missing out on much if I got obliterated by a drunk driver while crossing the street.

When you own 5 DMMs, all arguments become irrelevant.
Sometimes a fella's just gotta stunt.

Yeah, fuck, I don't think I can refute this.

[weed_killer]

It's like, "MAN I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT THIS, but at least one day I'll be dead as fuck."
"ahhhh..."

+1. this is the best realization.

so true. that realization basically cured depression for me. it's funny getting really worked up about something then doing a total 180 and realizing it doesn't mean anything.

I think realizing how easy it would be for me to stop feeling everything and how meaningless everything is has worsened my anxiety rather than make it better.
I'm not saying I'm gonna blow my brains out, but I'm also not saying I think I'd really be missing out on much if I got obliterated by a drunk driver while crossing the street.

yeah, I agree with you here. Accepting death isn't an issue for me, but it doesn't correlate with relaxation - it just makes me stress more to get shit done faster.

[AxAxSxS]

It's all about that QTR

[Achtane]

It's like, "MAN I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT THIS, but at least one day I'll be dead as fuck."
"ahhhh..."

+1. this is the best realization.

so true. that realization basically cured depression for me. it's funny getting really worked up about something then doing a total 180 and realizing it doesn't mean anything.

I think realizing how easy it would be for me to stop feeling everything and how meaningless everything is has worsened my anxiety rather than make it better.
I'm not saying I'm gonna blow my brains out, but I'm also not saying I think I'd really be missing out on much if I got obliterated by a drunk driver while crossing the street.

I don't think there's any inherent meaning to life, but you can create a purpose for something, you know, do things that you find purpose or inspiration in.
Dude, think about all the peasants that lived back in the day. We'll be nameless like them. Their whole life, and for the most part and on an individual scale, nothing to show for it (but this isn't necessarily a negative thing). That's not to say that making your mark on human history is the end-all-be-all, though, as it's ultimately as meaningless as the life of toothless Jebediah of Shitter Hill was or whatever. It's equal. But "meaningless" doesn't mean "throwaway". Maybe. What I'm trying to say is that you're not a piece of shit or something. Pointless in the frame of a void, but not worthless?
Just try to take pleasure in the things that you do and live as fulfilling a life as you can. I guess. I'm also not trying to discount your worries as irrelevant. They are real. But maybe you can find a way to take some of the vinegar out of them.
I'm drunk and kind of forgot where I was going with this. I lost momentum. Sorry.
Anyway, you may or may not miss out on much if you got obliterated by a drunk driver, but also don't go blowing your brains out 'cause I'd miss seeing you on ILF.

[Deltaphoenix]

Build a Great Pyramid or Taj Mahal or something. Fear of death and meaninglessness can lead to big things.

[goroth]

Death is the only reason for doing anything. Life's short and unpredictable nature, and everything's ephemeral nature makes doing anything beautiful.

[PetZounds]

I don't think there's any inherent meaning to life, but you can create a purpose for something, you know, do things that you find purpose or inspiration in.
Dude, think about all the peasants that lived back in the day. We'll be nameless like them. Their whole life, and for the most part and on an individual scale, nothing to show for it (but this isn't necessarily a negative thing). That's not to say that making your mark on human history is the end-all-be-all, though, as it's ultimately as meaningless as the life of toothless Jebediah of Shitter Hill was or whatever. It's equal. But "meaningless" doesn't mean "throwaway". Maybe. What I'm trying to say is that you're not a piece of shit or something. Pointless in the frame of a void, but not worthless?
Just try to take pleasure in the things that you do and live as fulfilling a life as you can. I guess. I'm also not trying to discount your worries as irrelevant. They are real. But maybe you can find a way to take some of the vinegar out of them.
I'm drunk and kind of forgot where I was going with this. I lost momentum. Sorry.
Anyway, you may or may not miss out on much if you got obliterated by a drunk driver, but also don't go blowing your brains out 'cause I'd miss seeing you on ILF.

Thank you for the kind words.
It means a lot.

Yeah I'm not going to kill myself because I'd rather not negatively impact the lives of my family and friends.
Even if the lives of my loved ones matter as little as my own, I'd rather let them enjoy the life they get in peace without having to scrape me off a sidewalk.
Like sure it would be easier to be nothing and being a thing is really fucking hard sometimes but I can do it for a while longer.
I have the rest of eternity to be dead so I might as well just be not dead for a while.

The only thing I care about is art and I'm a chemistry major who works at a lab and is planning to go to grad school and I can't help but think that that entire part of my life is probably bullshit that I just don't care about at all that I'm just doing so I can 'get a good job' somewhere so I can send my own kids to college someday where they can think about killing themselves while studying law or whatever.
I love chemistry, don't get me wrong, I think it's beautiful, but I don't think anything I'll ever do in that field will be important or something I will care about.
I don't know, I'm not going to drop out or anything either, because I don't have the balls to do anything other than keep moving forward.
I'm trying to find the balance between doing things that progress me toward "a 'good' future" (working in a lab, doing homework) vs. doing things that I actually think matter and give a shit about (writing music, consuming literature and music).
I guess the fact that I'm salient of what I want in my life (at least right now) is a good sign that what I want is probably within my reach.
At the same time, I don't know if I have the courage to reach out and grab at it.

Just the entire bullshit thing of taking out all these fucking loans and going through all this shit to get somewhere where I can pay more money and be more stressed for a few years and then eventually go from there to somewhere I'm probably going to hate but will 'be a good job' just seems so disheartening to me right now, I don't know if I give a shit about that at all.
I feel like there's this path expected of me and it's the one I'm taking but I feel like it's probably bullshit.
Maybe I just want to wash dishes and live in an apartment alone.
I don't know.

Existence is terrifying, and I'm rambling.
Time is a flat circle.

[KaosCill8r]

Dude take it from someone who definitely has more years behind them than in front of them. Life is a beautiful and amazing thing. The meaning of life is to live the best way you can with what is available to you. Live each day like it is your last, because it very well might be. Love as much as you can. Never sweat the small stuff because it is irrelevant and there is far bigger things to worry about. Never be hateful or bitter about things, it will poison you and hasten your demise. Appreciate even the smallest victories. All the 1%ers eventually add up to 100%. If you care a lot about making your mark on this world, then procreate and leave a good bloodline. Kids and grandkids would make me happier and filled with achievement more than building a pyramid or skyscraper or painting the next big masterpiece. Be a friend to the planet. We don't own it, we are just leasing it from future generations. But above all stick around. The world is a better place with you in it. And that also goes for the rest of you fuzz loving sweethearts.