The Doom Room: ILF Edition

[whiskey_face]

mojo sent for the pooch its never ever easy.

they dont live as long as us so we have a chance to give many wonderful lives.

[HeavyXIII]

Definitely feel you on the dog man. My condolences. I've always had a soft spots for dogs, I'd take them all if I could.

[black mess]

i dont fucking get women

[AngryGoldfish]

You understand women or you don't score women?

[black mess]

well, both.

[AngryGoldfish]

I've finally met someone so I can't complain right now.

[black mess]

Good for you man.

I have serious confidence issues, lost a dream girl because of that

[AngryGoldfish]

I have severe confidence issues as well. My girlfriend doesn't care though. She sees beyond confidence, which for most is just an outward demonstration of one small side of them, and cares about the finer details that make me who I am. Some people are confident in the truest sense. They believe in themselves as humans and are true to who they are no matter what they're doing or who they're with. Others are confident because they're practised at it. They're not reflecting their deepest personality traits. They're just more suave and sophisticated than they really are deep down. They just know what to say. But no one is truly James Bond deep down. Even Bond has issues.

[live-i-evil]

staying in the doom section of ilf, the guys over at general said i don't have a heart

i just can't relate to not eating animals, i'm sorry! BRETT, IM SORRY OKAY! i'm sorry i don't have a heart brett.. ALRIGHT?

Haha, heartless vid in here, just blowing it. Really that doesn't make you heartless though at all and I'm sure you know that. There's just a huge kind of ideological disconnect for a lot of people about where their food comes from, what it is, what it was, and what it means to eat it, which can be a dangerous thing. I'm not saying you're of this mindset or anything but I know that I was, and still am, a part of this mindset. I don't feel any particular remorse about eating meat even though I find it to be wrong. I know that may not make much sense but it's true and I think that's part of what can be dangerous, the fact that due to ingrained ideas from my raising I know morally that eating an animal, especially a really smart animal like a pig, despite whether or not it was free range or what have you, is wrong and ridiculously cruel yet it doesn't make me feel bad. I'm not offended when people say the love meat and don't want to give it up so no worries at all on that front. It can just get super tiring going through the same line of questioning about it any time it gets brought up. I know the generalization is that vegans always bring it up any chance they can but I don't, my friends don't, and I wish people just realized that I don't care what you eat/think/say to me, I'm not going to have a sudden moment and start eating meat again and that's totally fine we can all still be friends and do whatever it is we were doing.

Sorry for the rant, tl;dr - still besties for life.

HI GUYS! I've been away mostly on account of tragedy. The first minor tragedy is I blew up my Bassman 135. We were sound checking at the Croc and when I flipped it on it went "fizz fizz fail". Two fizzes and nothing. I had to use the backup amp that night which is a Lab Series L4. Which is a great amp to cart around as a backup amp IN THEORY. It sounds so good when you don't actually need it. But on stage it drove me nuts. So anyway I got the Fender back to the space and then I couldn't make it fuck up. It worked fine. So then came our first practice after the failure. I went in the room by myself and was crankin up all over the place. It sounded great. So the rest of the guys came in and on the very first note we hit my amp gave a flash and a cloud of really harsh smoke. So I went back to the L4 and it was just fucking with my head. I mean I'm told we sounded just fine the night I had to play that thing but it just doesn't get me all zenned up 'n shit. So I broke out the big gun. That's right, Super Lead Overdrive to the rescue. For some reason I didn't bother to take the time to get the Ape Blaster to sound right with it before. And it sounded so instantly right with the Bassman I just figured I'd go that route and put the SLO up for awhile. Well this has all been a blessing in disguise because now I have the Ape Blaster dialed in PROPER on the clean channel which still leaves me the unadulterated drive channel so instead of just dirty and clean I get two dirties and a clean! The two channels share the EQ so I got real lucky. Basically I use the pedal/clean most of the time. Sometimes we kick off the fuzz and get mellow and then afterwards kick it back on to crush beards and melt vaginas. So now when I kick it back on I use the overdrive channel and it's just this tiny fraction deeper sounding which lends a smidgen of triumphantness to a heavyass outro. It's the best I've ever sounded and that of course brings the band up a little too. I'm pretty fucking happy about this 'tragedy' or at least I will be until I get the repair bill on the Fender.

But the other tragedy is pure suck and it's a bring down every fucking day since. My main dog Marco died. One day he's having like a double size walk and the next he stopped eating. Five days later he died of his own accord. Everybody likes their dog the best but even amongst my dogs this dude was special. He was the mellowest animal I ever knew. I don't think it's even possible to have another like him.

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Cool on the SLO but that's a real bummer about Marco, seemed like such a sweetheart when I was up there. Mojo sent dooder.

[LOCOPELAND]

[black mess]

I have severe confidence issues as well. My girlfriend doesn't care though. She sees beyond confidence, which for most is just an outward demonstration of one small side of them, and cares about the finer details that make me who I am. Some people are confident in the truest sense. They believe in themselves as humans and are true to who they are no matter what they're doing or who they're with. Others are confident because they're practised at it. They're not reflecting their deepest personality traits. They're just more suave and sophisticated than they really are deep down. They just know what to say. But no one is truly James Bond deep down. Even Bond has issues.

Wise words, thanks for these.

And sorry for the sappiness. I just feel a bit miserable right now.

[AngryGoldfish]

What happened? How did you lose her? If that's too personal, just say so.

[black mess]

"Lost" may not be the best word, since I actually never had her. I already cried my guts out in the confessions thread a couple days ago, but basically what happened was both of us having feelings for each other, both of us being too shy to take the first step, time passing, I didn't move on, she did and is now with one of my best friends. Life is shitty sometimes.

[AngryGoldfish]

Damn, I'm sorry, man. Why did you let her go? Did you feel you weren't good enough for her? I believe that when you care about someone you should never have to let them go. It's a famous cliché: 'If you love someone then you'll let them go.' No. If you love her you'll find a way to be with her. If you love someone, you're in love with the idea of you as a couple. You can envision yourself with her. For some this can be frightening, but for others it's revelatory. You might have to find that feeling of revelation before you can either try and get her back (but obviously without hurting anyone) or move on and attempt to find another perfect girl, because there is always more than one perfect girl. Always. Find confidence in your feelings. Accept them and trust them. She might notice this and see your determination as deeply endearing and attractive.

[black mess]

Damn, I'm sorry, man. Why did you let her go? Did you feel you weren't good enough for her? I believe that when you care about someone you should never have to let them go. It's a famous cliché: 'If you love someone then you'll let them go.' No. If you love her you'll find a way to be with her. If you love someone, you're in love with the idea of you as a couple. You can envision yourself with her. For some this can be frightening, but for others it's revelatory. You might have to find that feeling of revelation before you can either try and get her back (but obviously without hurting anyone) or move on and attempt to find another perfect girl, because there is always more than one perfect girl. Always. Find confidence in your feelings. Accept them and trust them. She might notice this and see your determination as deeply endearing and attractive.

Yeah, I think I felt she was too good for me - confidence issues, blablabla - and I never told her or showed her how I felt. It wasn't a love at first sight thing so when I fell for her we were already very good friends so I was also afraid of ruining our friendship, which was something I really cherished. I only poured my heart out for her when she started dating my friend, and then she told me she had felt the same for me before but things didnt go forward so she moved on. That blew my mind but only made it worse i think.

This is pretty recent so I have no idea what I'll do right now. I havent felt this heartbroken in a long long time. And apart from losing her, our friendship is obviously not the same as before. The same for my friendship with him. Really sucks.

(it also feels like my english is awful, sorry)