by dubkitty » Tue Dec 22, 2020 2:09 pm
that's excellent. it's a terrible cliche, but to get somewhere you first have to start, and you're doing that. and with the advances in antidepressants in the last quarter-century, you're more likely to have a result.
before changing my medication there's something else i'm going to try. it sounds like hocus-pocus New Age shit, but apparently it's been approved as a treatment. it's called TMS, and it involves having your head magnetically irradiated to reorder its circuitry or connections or something like that. it's non-invasive and has no major side effects, but it's very time-consuming: 5 days a week of 40-minute treatments for 6 weeks. the pandemic is actually making it more convenient; if i had to go to and from the office to sessions it would require an additional hour of back-and-forth that would totally fuck my work *and* life schedule, but it's 12 minutes from home so i can just start work early for 6 weeks and go in after. i'm pretty curious to see what will happen. they wanted me to be part of a preliminary study at UVA but the travel time and the requirement that i stop all my meds precluded participation.
it's going to be hard to resist leaving the treatments walking like Frankenstein's Monster and going "EET'S ALIIIIIVE, DOKTOR!"