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I rearrange my pedalboard in my mind pretty much every night before falling asleep. I may also discuss the choices with myself.

"But imagine pedal A's feedback characteristics cascading into pedal B when pedal B's settings are such and such." Fucking dork.

UglyCasanova wrote:I rearrange my pedalboard in my mind pretty much every night before falling asleep. I may also discuss the choices with myself.

"But imagine pedal A's feedback characteristics cascading into pedal B when pedal B's settings are such and such." Fucking dork.

Same here!

i growl real quiet under my breath when im trying to figure something out or when i am generally annoyed.

i enjoy being alone. im very anxious in groups of people and often get very very distant and twitchy. general admission concerts are not fun for me at all unless its at a smaller bar/club and i can get right up front or snag a seat on a mezz. once the music starts im all good but the waiting in the crowd even when i am with friends causes me to get real anxious i guess.

i do not want to talk on the phone. in fact i down right hate talking on the phone. really, im not a big fan of talking in general. there is no such thing as an awkward silence for me. when whom ever i am with is uncomfortable with a silence i pick up on it right away and usually start grinning and right away get questioned about why im grinning. dont get me wrong, i do like to be around people but im always the guy that doesnt talk a lot. however, i am a very loud person. i cant help it.

humans are my least favorite animal on this planet but i am not trying to turn this into a what kind of asshole are you thread.

ok, now that you know i am an aloof crack pot here are some habits...

i have to have a cap on my pen unless its a clicky pen. if its a standard ball point with no cap i will give it to someone or throw it away. you do not want me to have a clicky pen because i will start clicking slayer songs if you make me sit in this meeting. i always bring clicky pens to meetings. i do not eat mayo but i will put peanut butter on my blt. i absolutely have to face all bills as soon as they hit my hand even if they never go into my wallet. if someone hands me a messed up stack of bills, say more than 3-4, i sorta grunt and face them right there in front of the person. i cant help it and never realized i grunted until an ex told me. when playing games that need a score keeper in have to be the score keeper. not because i dont trust others just because there is no other way. i dont burp like normal people. i let out a series of 4 or 5 smaller burps all in a row. i often do the right hand bass finger picking thing as im walking around. i dont usually talk to my cats because i sing to them. i am a horrible singer but when i talk to them its in a sort of sung song format. i do the same sort of overboard collecting that some of you have talked about. jwar would probably giggle over my bookshelf. easton press was way better 15-20 years ago though...

sigh, thats enough for now. sorry if im not really around/contributing much anymore.

goroth wrote:

UglyCasanova wrote:I rearrange my pedalboard in my mind pretty much every night before falling asleep. I may also discuss the choices with myself.

"But imagine pedal A's feedback characteristics cascading into pedal B when pedal B's settings are such and such." Fucking dork.

Same here!

on this forum saying you didnt do this would land you in the weirdo thread i think!

magiclawnchair wrote:

i enjoy being alone.

i do not want to talk on the phone. in fact i down right hate talking on the phone.

Yes and yes. I'm pretty quick to clown on FB or on here, but when it comes down to it, I'm borderline misanthrope. People generally bug me. And that's not to say that I'm unfriendly towards EVERYONE. But I really value my alone time. And I say this with every ounce of sincerity I can muster, FUCK talking on the phone. The only people I'll actually talk to on the phone are my kids or the Mrs., and sometimes I'm even reluctant to talk to them.

This is why the Carrot and I get along so good

Since I'm not diagnosed with anything, I can say all kinds of stuff probably.

I drink a lot. Sometimes I get desperate for intoxication and will hold shots under my tongue before swallowing. Sometimes I fast for days before drinking or do intense workouts just so I can feel it sooner and harder.

I make faces in the mirror and each one has a soul and a back story. There's one who hasn't slept in 40 years. He makes me feel sad so I dont make that face as much.

Speaking of sad I get overly emotionally attached to innimate oobjects and bits of programming. This is why I can't play Pokemon. All of my buddies and friends. There's some that are trapped forever in a computer. Sometimes I cry myself to sleep because my Lucario hasn't seen me in months. Then there's the pokemon twice removed. They're stuck ina computer in the game. I try to never think about it because to ease my guilt I'd have to play the game and then in the game put my best friends in a stasis cellar to pull out folk I just don't want to see hurt or lonely. I know they're code. But that doesn't stop the attachment. They were made for me. For me to keep them company and adventure. No one I know in reality has ever taken this grief seriously.

Similarly, I kinda feel the same about things I make. I am their god. I make stuff and just cast it aside? That's fucked up!
I feel bad about not playing my instruments.

Also on attachments, there's this styrofoam cup I have from my first boyfriend. He drew a face on it to keep me company. I dont keep the cup because of fond memories oor anything to do with him. That cup is one of my friends. A nameless friend, but I'll talk to it upon entering the room.

I can't have pets because of the Pokemon thing. The ending to Batman Brave and the Bold made me cry for hours.

I watch lots of anime. It keeps me preoccupied. I sleep as much as I can. I hate being conscious and sober.

Sometimes I want to break things or do silly stuff like swerve into oncoming traffic. I'm not suicidal or anythng. I just want to do something that will have an effect. I am reminded of a story where a guy held a building hostage with a box of Teddy Grahams. The professor telling the class this story was trying to tell us how diagnosis and treatment can help things from getting dumb, but I just had respect for the fellow. No guns, no violence and just to see what he could do with a box of Teddy Grahams.

Sometimes I forget things I do. Like if I gave my phone number when leaving a message. Or if I put stamp on an envelope. Or if really wrote words or a string of letters and curses when writing to my mom. I get confused about things and don't hear stuff correctly, so I have to make up what people say to me sometimes. I'm pretty good at it.

Kinda want to cut off a finger to see what it feels like. To see how it feels sending a signal to something that isn't there.

with that I'd better stop. it gos downhill from there.

magiclawnchair wrote:i do not want to talk on the phone. in fact i down right hate talking on the phone. really, im not a big fan of talking in general. there is no such thing as an awkward silence for me. when whom ever i am with is uncomfortable with a silence i pick up on it right away and usually start grinning and right away get questioned about why im grinning. dont get me wrong, i do like to be around people but im always the guy that doesnt talk a lot. however, i am a very loud person. i cant help it.

same here. i deliberately ignore phone calls unless its a close friend or relative and even then i kind of dread it. i will never pick up a phone call if i don't know the number. if it's important they can send me a text so i can reply at my own leisure. whenever i have to make a phone call it takes me quite a while to mentally prepare for it.
i do the grinning in awkward silences thing too, i'm a softly spoken person generally but i have bad hearing so when i get excited whilst talking it will be really loud, and whenever an awkward or even serious situation comes along my coping mechanism is to just start chuckling at myself even if it isn't funny (i get called out on this quite a bit, it probably comes off as insensitive).

This thread is great! See we are all the same! ONE OF US! ONE OF US! hahaha

blooghost wrote: It's a bit uncomfortable, but worth it for the pure freedom.

Words to live by.

i buy multiples of everything i like- and usually never use the second one
find a shirt i like, i buy 2
pants shoes, i buy 2
will make a list of the other 50 things later

Suture weirdo...shit's gotta be straight to heal.

magiclawnchair wrote:i will put peanut butter on my blt

I will put peanut butter on any/every meat ever invented!

I just remembered that although I am definitely right handed I only brush my teeth with my left hand. I can't even pretend to wield a toothbrush with my right hand. I broke the fuck out of my left hand one time and it was a hideous nightmare of plaque and halitosis for six weeks.

I'll open up just about any electronic device that won't be damaged in the process, just to take a look at the guts. I'm not hardcore into electrical engineering though, I mean it's not like I'll really gain much from it other than "neat".

Achtane wrote:I'll open up just about any electronic device that won't be damaged in the process, just to take a look at the guts. I'm not hardcore into electrical engineering though, I mean it's not like I'll really gain much from it other than "neat".

i tend to do that too. i also have a habit of dismantling any electronic devices that are broken / to be thrown out. i sometimes scavenge parts from them but rarely actually use the parts, it's just a weird obsession with pulling things apart. laptops, alarm clocks, anything really. i've cut myself many times in the process of prying things open that weren't designed to be opened.

backwardsvoyager wrote:

Achtane wrote:I'll open up just about any electronic device that won't be damaged in the process, just to take a look at the guts. I'm not hardcore into electrical engineering though, I mean it's not like I'll really gain much from it other than "neat".

i tend to do that too. i also have a habit of dismantling any electronic devices that are broken / to be thrown out. i sometimes scavenge parts from them but rarely actually use the parts, it's just a weird obsession with pulling things apart. laptops, alarm clocks, anything really. i've cut myself many times in the process of prying things open that weren't designed to be opened.

Oh yeah, I salvage stuff that I'll never use, especially if it looks cool or has an interesting action.
Maybe some day I really will turn that tone arm into a trem bar (probably not).
Mechanical things are the same way...I NEED TO SEE HOW THIS WORKS.
...OH MY GOD NOW THERE ARE PARTS EVERYWHERE WHY DID I START THIS BULLSHIT