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I don't have my own best interests at heart. I just went on dates across the street from one another. I left one to go to the other. I was paranoid the whole time.

I got up at 8:30 on a Saturday to do some work for uni. What is happening to me?

I've been here in bed since I got home around 12:40 and I just cannot fall asleep. The usual internal dialogue loop of every insignificant bullshit detail from the night running in my head and making me really mad at myself. I'm so tired, literally right now but mentally too lately - I have to be out tonight to meet others' expectations and I just want to stay in bed for a couple days and not have to interact with anyone.

snipelfritz wrote:I've decided this is my last month at this job no matter what.

Congratulations. I hope your next venture isn't one that drives you to that same position.

jfrey wrote:I don't have my own best interests at heart. I just went on dates across the street from one another. I left one to go to the other. I was paranoid the whole time.

Holy shit, that's intense.
That worked out okay?
I can't even go on one date and be comfortable, two in a row with added paranoia sounds scary.

farts of doom

alexa. wrote:farts of doom

I do them every morning. Scares the shit out of the cats. I've never seen them jump so high

alexa. wrote:farts of doom

Oh snap, you gt the new Randall Amp????

I got the veggie diet winds of desolation.

PetZounds wrote:

jfrey wrote:I don't have my own best interests at heart. I just went on dates across the street from one another. I left one to go to the other. I was paranoid the whole time.

Holy shit, that's intense.
That worked out okay?
I can't even go on one date and be comfortable, two in a row with added paranoia sounds scary.

The second girl drove me home. I couldn't sleep, so I called the first girl over. She wouldn't be fucking quiet. I ended up getting sick in the middle of the night from drinking too much. In the morning she like wouldn't leave. Was driving me crazy. 10/10 would not invite over again.

EDIT: bleh double postaroo

I think maybe I could enjoy another couple years of stoner wage-slavedom if I get a decently fun job and then could work on all sorts of other music projects.

I've been trying to get a big boy, career starter job for a while. Nothing has come through and I'm starting to think I should just take a break and try doing something myself with my own resources.

I guess I hadn't considered that as a voluntary option right now, more like giving up, but it doesn't have to be. Now that I'm out of my old job, I feel like I'm seeing things clearer. I'm also kind of high so I'll revisit these thoughts tomorrow when I'm nailing a bunch more job applications.

I love to sleep. Honestly, it's one of my favorite activities.
There's nothing better than waking up at like 2AM, thinking it's almost time to get up, and realizing that FUCK YEAH I CAN SLEEP A LOT MORE.

Achtane wrote:I love to sleep. Honestly, it's one of my favorite activities.
There's nothing better than waking up at like 2AM, thinking it's almost time to get up, and realizing that FUCK YEAH I CAN SLEEP A LOT MORE.

Yes.

Achtane wrote:I love to sleep. Honestly, it's one of my favorite activities.
There's nothing better than waking up at like 2AM, thinking it's almost time to get up, and realizing that FUCK YEAH I CAN SLEEP A LOT MORE.

This is what I live for. That and getting up, eating a snack and napping on the sofa. Fuck Yes.