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Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 12:15 am
by rustywire
psychic vampire. wrote:...
Rusty: we disagree about a lot and agree so much on gear. It's a fun e-relationship. The Warm Audio WA76 is my "if i ever build a home studio again, it's fucking mine, no one can stop me." I'll check out the MXR. It and the Vermona Retroverb Lancet are my two like "oh hell yes, i'd get those and just use them on every song." Effects. maybe like, an Electrix Filter Factory and pretty much just a bunch of bonkers rack gear and spring verbs and bullshit that you can't tour with.
rustywire wrote:Kickass audio gear is the tie that binds
This was our final exchange here on the site. We didn't DM, and at times our public discourse may have been viewed as contentious, but there was an obv understanding without animus. I have the tendency to play devil's advocate quite a bit (thanks, dad) and felt frustration with incoming phrasing probably as much as [psyvam] did, but was fully rooting for fortune in life to smile upon a stranger/underdog who I never met. Will remember.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 12:51 am
by neonblack
Holy shit, I just logged on for the first time today and this hit me hard as fuck. Ive been watching all this news coverage, and my wife actually cried reading the article about her earlier. And again just now when I realized she was ILF.
Sending my best to everyone affected.
Someone needs to make a memorial fuzz and donate the proceeds to her loved ones or a cause she would have supported. Feral Pines is a badass name. And she was a badass person. I'll kiss the next drum machine I see in her honor.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 1:22 am
by behndy
god damnit.
didn't know her as well as i would have liked. this is so sad.
she was always such a funny and interesting person.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 1:27 am
by waltdogg
ah jeez, im at a complete loss here. this is exactly why im not reading the news. and i was just wondering about where pv had been and how things had turned out for her. fuck.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 1:33 am
by zzuFrepuS
totally fucking bogus! rest in peace i love fuzzer.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 2:02 am
by goosekevin
been thinking about this all day and really wish i had talked to her more, when i came out she messaged me immediately with love and support and her email to chat more if ever i needed it. one of the funniest and wisest people on this forum. im really glad we, and the people she knew in other physical spaces got to know her and share time
love to you and yours blowupthesun, im truly so sorry for your loss
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 2:42 am
by DRodriguez
I don't really have anything to say that hasn't been said already. She was a rad person. We didn't talk much, but she was the first to make me realize I might have something worthwhile to share in the weird gear world.
Thanks for sharing this with us, and sorry for your loss. All I can really hope is that some positive comes out of all this, whether it is awareness to your cause or changes that help avoid this kind of tragedy in the future.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 3:02 am
by Faldoe
I didn't know she lived/moved out here. I also always enjoyed her posts.
This is all really fucking sad.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 8:13 am
by Invisible Man
Hope it's cool to do this, but here's one more sample of PV from a PM conversation:
psychic vampire wrote:Thought a lot about what you said while i was camping in the woods with 350-odd queer and trans people, running sound for what is ostensibly a music festival and dance party, but might just be an excuse to get stupid and fist a stranger on top of a car or do a BDSM scene in a barn. I spent two hours alone one morning, wondering if i'm actually still an anarchist, since i feel such a deep and intense personal disaffection with everything that word has come to mean in my communities, and i never felt very actively concerned about projects that amount to social work. It doesn't really matter, but shedding identities in favor of mutability seems more interesting.
Had a long conversation about trying to build the spaces where happiness can be found more commonly and expanding those moments, it turned into talk about joy vs happiness. Whatever the case, i think you're right, and am really, truly thankful you said what you did. I should choose joy and happiness.
I hope you're doing well. I'm reading things and trying to figure out the upcoming next step, but i think June and July are going to be good months. Have a good day.
So: anarchism, fisting, genuine expression of complex struggles and emotions.
You'll be missed.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 8:14 am
by Fluffytime
Shit. Rest in peace.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 8:57 am
by JonnyAngle
Invisible Man wrote:Hope it's cool to do this, but here's one more sample of PV from a PM conversation:
psychic vampire wrote:Thought a lot about what you said while i was camping in the woods with 350-odd queer and trans people, running sound for what is ostensibly a music festival and dance party, but might just be an excuse to get stupid and fist a stranger on top of a car or do a BDSM scene in a barn. I spent two hours alone one morning, wondering if i'm actually still an anarchist, since i feel such a deep and intense personal disaffection with everything that word has come to mean in my communities, and i never felt very actively concerned about projects that amount to social work. It doesn't really matter, but shedding identities in favor of mutability seems more interesting.
Had a long conversation about trying to build the spaces where happiness can be found more commonly and expanding those moments, it turned into talk about joy vs happiness. Whatever the case, i think you're right, and am really, truly thankful you said what you did. I should choose joy and happiness.
I hope you're doing well. I'm reading things and trying to figure out the upcoming next step, but i think June and July are going to be good months. Have a good day.
So: anarchism, fisting, genuine expression of complex struggles and emotions.
You'll be missed.
Yup!
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 9:05 am
by fcknoise
It just struck me it's the second year in a row we lost a member around the holidays. But struck equally really hard for different reasons, but this shit is so sad. I'm sad I didn't get to interact with her more, just the occasional talk about drum machines and applicable fuzzes for them.
Cheers to the best Internet community I've ever known
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 9:07 am
by coldbrightsunlight
That message really shows everything that was great about her personality as viewed from ilf. Funny, thoughtful, interesting and genuine.
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 9:12 am
by oscillateur
Damn, this might be the understatement of the year but that really sucks
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I didn't get much direct interaction beyond being interested in the same noisy synth things but she seemed to be one of the really good people around here. I was actually wondering the other day why we didn't see that squid thingy avatar more recently.
It won't make anything easier but she was appreciated as someone genuinely nice and interesting by a bunch of music lovers all around the world, which is more than can be said for most people...
Re: PsychicVampire was at the Ghost Ship
Posted: Fri Dec 09, 2016 10:42 am
by crochambeau
For fuck sake, the crush of this tragedy just keeps grinding ever deeper.
I'm somewhat socially stunted so we never had direct interaction, but hers did become a familiar presence around here. Rest in power.
A lotta good people are not making it out of 2016.
