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I posted about this in the anger thread (Lol), but here it goes.

So last night I had a trade offer/sale for my MTD. It was for a single cut Elrick plus like 600 cash. Which would put me right at where I wanted to be financially for something I'm paying off.

I said ok to the person, but we never exchanged info.

I plugged my bass in (mistake number one if you're getting ready to flip something), kicked on my ILFDD and sat and played for an hour. I could not believe the pure amount of satisfaction I was getting from this instrument and my delay pedal. My heart started to quicken when I realized I had committed to a sale/trade. I could not believe I'd do that. This instrument has been with me for 3 years and I went through around 25 instruments to get the one I wanted. All kinds of shit came and went. Funny thing too because it took me time to get money to buy this. It's expensive. After playing for that long, I realized, I'm not bored. I just needed a fucking break. I'm not stagnant or anything like it. I found music last night I didn't know I had in me and it was simple and beautiful.

So I told the person, I'm sorry I just cannot do the trade. I just cant. I explained my situation with the instrument and how I felt deeply connected to it. Probably came off a bit psycho. LOL! But it's true. It's like an extension of myself. They were cool about it. Offered me more cash, but they were cool! Thankfully!!! I felt bad, but at the same time, it's so very hard for me to feel this way at all.

I was talking about it with my wife and I almost cried when I was talking about my bass. It's silly! I almost cried talking about my connection with an object that I feel is a part of me. Wow.

Anyway, I decided to move my guitar instead, since I suck at it and it hurts my hands/wrists.

My plans are to move the guitar and a few pedals. HOPEFULLY buy Physic's Moog 32 and pay off my Ezhi and Aka pre-order (like 8 fucking pedals!! LOL!) Then I have enough! I'm crazy if I think otherwise!!

This thread has helped me though. It's made me realize I wasn't bored, I was just stuck in my own head.

jwar wrote:...realize I wasn't bored, I was just stuck in my own head.

I think the first thing one should do when feeling stuck in a rut, is to break routine in a way which can be undone without moving mountains. From time to time I'm tempted to destroy+rebuild my setup so I can explore again, anew...but never do. It's when I'm on edge and in a rut and looking for shortcuts to get outta ze valley. Sometimes it means I have to disassociate and not pick up an instrument or turn on any gear for a few days. Every few months I stop playing around & listen...does wonders more (for me) than having a fire sale. It prolongs/rekindles the excitement I feel over the familiar. Absence makes the heart grow fonder

I posted this elsewhere, but i started oil painting for the first time in the better part of a decade yesterday. i've forgotten so much of what i was supposed to do, and i used to be great. But it was lovely, and it was really nice to just embrace the creativity that felt present in that moment rather than to try to force the creativity i wanted (musical energy) when i knew i've had no motivation for it lately. Highly recommend taking stock of what creative energy you're feeling, at any given time.

2 days ago a pre-amp tube started going microphonic (v2) which now relegates it to PI or distortion circuits. In changing the tubes, I realized I've been plateauing and could use a change. So I took the jumper out of my amp (Selmer TNB 50mk2), plugged into the Normal/Treble side...and decided to ignore half my connected pedal board.
DMM at the end was the only pedal I kept always-on. Then I paired diff fuzz+mod combinations in front. Harmonic Percolator > Deja vibe, Green Bastard > PolyFlange, Skinpimp MK2 > phase-o-matic deluxe & cross combinations in between. Once again everything feels fresh & exciting yet...familiar

3 new riffs have emerged