ilovefuzz.com

DarkAxel wrote:I don't know what to make of it... could you describe?

The same things - some kind of intense emotion - that would cause a panic attack for my girlfriend set it off, except for me my body becomes very still instead of shaky - to the point where it actually feels like my skin has gotten tighter. And I feel like I'm getting an adrenaline rush, (my heart will be pounding ridiculously hard, and I feel physically stronger) except instead of the euphoric feeling, I just feel kind of cold. As though my emotions have for the most part just switched off. Speaking takes extreme effort. It feels as though I have forgotten how to.

It's hard to describe.

What's odd is that that all sounds like I'd flip out or be out of control or something, but if anything it feels the opposite. I'm very controlled.

It's something that happens very rarely - maybe once or twice a year. When it does I usually just go for a walk, the night air helps.

Glad to hear you're doing better Senor Axel.

For some reason the panic attacks I was having, basically daily, over the past year gradually subsided and I only get them once every few months. It's very strange, at one point they were extremely intense and frequent and then all of a sudden, boom, gone.

jfrey wrote:

DarkAxel wrote:I don't know what to make of it... could you describe?

The same things - some kind of intense emotion - that would cause a panic attack for my girlfriend set it off, except for me my body becomes very still instead of shaky - to the point where it actually feels like my skin has gotten tighter. And I feel like I'm getting an adrenaline rush, (my heart will be pounding ridiculously hard, and I feel physically stronger) except instead of the euphoric feeling, I just feel kind of cold. As though my emotions have for the most part just switched off. Speaking takes extreme effort. It feels as though I have forgotten how to.

It's hard to describe.

What's odd is that that all sounds like I'd flip out or be out of control or something, but if anything it feels the opposite. I'm very controlled.

It's something that happens very rarely - maybe once or twice a year. When it does I usually just go for a walk, the night air helps.

never heard of that to be honest... but i guess you're lucky the emotional part is the worst for me

but i can see how it can feel really weird

theactionindex wrote:Glad to hear you're doing better Senor Axel.

For some reason the panic attacks I was having, basically daily, over the past year gradually subsided and I only get them once every few months. It's very strange, at one point they were extremely intense and frequent and then all of a sudden, boom, gone.

and good for you!

jfrey wrote:You ever get so tired that it feels like you aren't getting enough oxygen out of the air you breath in?

I believe you body's natural counter-mechanism for this is to yawn.

EDIT: Also, I wish I didn't have to wait an hour for the post office to open so I can send in my Second Voice because I esploded it.

Wife in hospital
Dog is really sick
FML

snipelfritz wrote:Also, I wish I didn't have to wait an hour for the post office to open so I can send in my Second Voice because I esploded it.

you done did wha?
you sploded your second voice?
dang it...

Caesar wrote:Wife in hospital
Dog is really sick
FML

Whoa... hope they get well soon... both...

Not sure if I put the input in the wrong side or used a bad power jack, but it don't work('cept the light). Dr. Ken is gonna fix 'er up thought(for a nominal fee, understandably).

Then I shall finally have mastered the power of both octave and fuzz!!! MUHUHHAAHAHAHHA!!!!!

snipelfritz wrote:Then I shall finally have mastered the power of both octave and fuzz!!! MUHUHHAAHAHAHHA!!!!!

I am also working on an octave fuzz.. but you know... it gets pretty complicated... I'll have to redo a few parts but I think I will be able to prototype it by next week

Moving tomorrow.

Shit always sucks.

smoked with some people from my floor last night which i thought would be awesome but it sucked. they were annoying as fuck and i also felt bad for trying to leave them. );

I want to put this on the wall of my cubicle

you know how i wrote before that my grandpa is in hospital? i just found out he died two hours ago

it hurts even more because he and grandma were the only part of my family that kinda understood me and i liked them the most... i'm worried for grandma

DarkAxel wrote:you know how i wrote before that my grandpa is in hospital? i just found out he died two hours ago

it hurts even more because he and grandma were the only part of my family that kinda understood me and i liked them the most... i'm worried for grandma

That's terrible. I'm very sorry for your loss.

Even when things hurt, remember that the best way to remember him is to live your life well, and be happy.

thanks

yeah I have to say that i'd be more than happy to be like him when i'm an old man

DarkAxel wrote:you know how i wrote before that my grandpa is in hospital? i just found out he died two hours ago

it hurts even more because he and grandma were the only part of my family that kinda understood me and i liked them the most... i'm worried for grandma

I'm so sorry. I never really got along with my grandfather that well, but my great uncle, who was 100% czech btw, was like a grandfather to me, and he passed away just over a year ago. He was one of the only people in my family that got me because he was artistic and I miss him. It was rough. My thoughts go out to you and your family