Times I worry about myself

[$harkToootth]

Neon: That's badass dude. I've only had out of body experiences with a bunch of salvia divinorum and always wondered how different it is from people who experience it naturally.

Did you like salvia?

[gnomethrone]

Eh I wouldn't call it "pleasant", but having quasi-religious experiences from something you can buy for $20 at the head shop is pretty neat. Its illegal where I live now so its been a few years but I would recommend it. Whether you put stock in metaphysical experiences or just wanna have a wacky trip it's a pretty useful plant. Also, much less of a commitment than dosing on something that lasts hours.

[Jwar]

I have a disconnect quite a bit honestly. I believe many times it comes from my inability to handle stresses through out the day. Then all of a sudden my brain just shuts down. Almost like it's in protection mode and trying to keep me from freaking out. So, I have this thing I do where if I get scatter brained, I call everything "thing". For instance, if I'm asking someone to get me something specific, I'll ask "hey will you get me that thing"? I'll assume they know what I mean even though I can't get the term to pop into my head. I know what it is I'm trying to say, but I cannot connect the dots. It drives me insane and makes me wonder if I'm losing it sometimes.

[Paul_C]

Paul_c, im pretty sure it has already shipped. if you did not get the tracking info you can email me for it mtl.asm@gmail.com

it is true we are actually in montreal, in the EST time zone.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnwFTYx8_K4[/youtube]

Thanks - I've had an email with a tracking number, I was just thinking about what time of day it was as it hadn't been collected - no point expecting you to have handed anything over to the courier if it was 2am and you were all in bed

[adamajah]

"Like those indians lost in the rainforest
forced to drag burning wood wherever they went
They all had forgotten how to start a fire"

[BitchPudding]

I have a lot of disconnect as well going on. To the point where I can't even find the right words I need to make a coherent sentence. Its like you'd think English isn't my first language, or that I'm Tommy Weisau.

Figure its ether stress, side effect of living in a mainly non english speaking house for close to two years, or the dementia that runs in my family is kicking in early. :/

[goroth]

One of my most vivid memories of my childhood was walking from the edge of the city where I studied to the pseudosuburban corner of Florida where I lived at the time. Despite being in the middle of the city and surrounded by highways this place was deserted on work hours, so if I left school just at the right time I could enjoy my walk back home in complete solitude, eerily quite stillness. Walking through this vacuum of a neighborhood, Sigur Ros drowning even the smallest hint of a sound, would trigger a dissociative state where it felt like I was controlling a machine. I was an invisible operator controlling my body. It was like being high without the messy substances. I would trigger this state often, just about any time I could manage to get out of school early, until one day when it just stopped happening. Pushed out by other worries that where now all to present in my head that grounded me and made me unable to disconnect.

I mark the lost of my ability to leave my body as the end of my childhood.




Anyways, the reason I wrote that is because when I would eventually get home my mind would snap back and I would have a moment of disorientation, thinking "where the fuck am I? Oh right I'm home!" Which the OP post reminded me of.

This was an awesome tale.

[$harkToootth]

Eh I wouldn't call it "pleasant", but having quasi-religious experiences from something you can buy for $20 at the head shop is pretty neat. Its illegal where I live now so its been a few years but I would recommend it. Whether you put stock in metaphysical experiences or just wanna have a wacky trip it's a pretty useful plant. Also, much less of a commitment than dosing on something that lasts hours.

Meant to 'Thank You' for the reply. Part of the appeal is 1. Legality where I live (100% legal) 2. Short term effects 3. At head shops like 10 minutes away (I don't have to text a guy who has to text a guy...who can meet you later but he can't...but can...to meet another dude etc.)

I read if you 'take/smoke less' it can be fairly useful for meditation or thinking (i.e. not tripping balls). The idea of seeing a 'physicality of time' is appealing. Not trying to walk in on inter-dimensional lizards banging or watching 'Golden Girls' or some shit. Thanks again, Sir!

[gnomethrone]

Yeah if you buy the actual leaves or a less potent extract I hear it can be mellow. Im more interested in watching space lizards bang lol.

[$harkToootth]

Yeah if you buy the actual leaves or a less potent extract I hear it can be mellow. Im more interested in watching space lizards bang lol.

Not sure if you're into Charles Burns comics. Once I heard seeing 'mean Lizards' was a common thing, it made me think of this.

[$harkToootth]

Also, pertinent to your username.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FkcY7r2XHe8[/youtube]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FkcY7r2XHe8

[gnomethrone]

Ha I've seen bits of those comics around before but I'm not familiar, gonna have to check out more. Never encountered the infamous reptillians, that would probably be enough for me to hang up my witch's hat and keep my nose out of places it doesn't belong. I have had some weird experiences but a gear forum may not be the place to type them out Also, McKenna never fails to entertain and make life more magical.

[Paul_C]

I've been on enough forums and for long enough not to be surprised when a thread drifts off course, but I'm not sure that it was ever on course after my first post

[$harkToootth]

Bringing it back on topic then...

Hopefully I'm not alone in this, but there are times when I'm not sure my brain is switched on at all.

I don't think my brain was ever switched on. Too many experiences to count that are similar to what you originally posted.

I have found lately, a different sort of thing is happening altering my behavior and giving people a different impression of me. I blame corporate life.

I was walking with a colleague during the holidays and per corporate sound bites felt inclined to ask about the holidays and his family. I said 'wife' and was (sternly) corrected with 'partner'. Whoops. I wanted to turn the conversation around and say things like, "Look...I'm really not that guy...someone who has preconceived notions of a what a 'family' is...". Usually I'm pretty on top of the pro-noun game...just not lately

The same colleague started talking about coffee later that day. I love coffee and felt I had things to contribute. Turns out the colleague did not know as much about coffee as his remarks led me to believe. I kind of hate that feeling when you come into a conversation and make someone realize they don't know what they're talking about (especially over trivial things like coffee). I haven't been 'winning' lately with colleague interactions

[$harkToootth]

Oh here's a good one!!! Happened today!!!
Watching my friends house. I drive over to get the mail. I put their mail in a box in the garage. IT IS ALWAYS AN ISSUE WITH ME (DID I SHUT THE GARAGE!). So I make it a point to stand there and wait and really take in 'the garage is closed'. Driving away -> "Oh fuck I better double check if I shut the garage". Pass the house to look and see. Driving the other direction now. "Wait...what...I better check again" pop another U-Turn and drive back the way I was initially driving to check for now the third time that garage is closed.

I might have to go back later and check again cause I'm a dumb ass