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chuckjaywalk wrote:
I don't know if you realize what that means to me in this moment.

dubkitty wrote:all my Dead discs except a couple of favorites and some E72 box set discs are packed up in the crates of CDs which i have nowhere to unpack. i'd need a wall of space (or perhaps a Wall of Sound) to shelve them all. and i have nothing other than the laptop with its tiny speakers to play music on. maybe when i get paid i'll try to find a boombox.

yeah, there's a lot of reaching out to do. easier on the net than in real life. i just don't know how, as the song asks, to mend my broken heart.

wen't through some rough times myself recently. still dealing with everything but i'm doing better with it largely do to people who i either met here or are on ILF.

Much love to ALL my FUZZ brethren. Never forget that we give a shit about you. Hang in there dudes. Shit always has it's ebb and flow, sometimes it piles up but that just means it;s going to go the other way soon.

Yeah, I know, sometimes it piles up A LOT. It'll get better, I promise.

There's seriously this girl I know that I possibly love her, but I'm nowhere near the point where telling her that would be appropriate.

#madcrush

I've been generally unhappy since I was a child (for 8-10 years), but I don't know if I'd say that it's actually progressed to real depression until I was around 15 years old. Worst was last winter thru this spring when I had constant suicidal thoughts + being miserable all the time, but I've finally worked my way back to just being emotionally numb most of the time.

Other than that, it's almost impossible for me to have meaningful friendships (something that I'm pretty sure is mostly my fault since it's highly unlikely that all of the people that I've met are what's wrong here) because I'm not capable of allowing myself to open up to anyone I meet irl. It sucks because I tend to care deeply about the people that I do allow into my life, but not knowing how to show that I do care is what I think gets in the way. Sucks being lonely. :/

Oh, and insomnia seems to be back again too.

I just want to thank you, dubkitty. This shit is tough, thank you for sharing.

Coming back here just to say, Im glad this thread is getting some traction and we're able to reach out to each other for support. It just shows what an awesome community we have going here.

Remember we all love you guys, our brothers in fuzz. Hang in there through whatever shit you got going on and remember were all here to get you through the tough times.

And as always, if anyone needs to talk, feel free to PM me.

i lost the job i had for three days, and i'm terrified i'll wind up on the street.

dubkitty wrote:i lost the job i had for three days, and i'm terrified i'll wind up on the street.

You might be able to talk to your landlord about your situation and pending disability case. Maybe you can work out a deal with him/her for an extra month after the money runs out, or use your security deposit(?) towards that extra month. Could give you some more time to try and get something lined up. By the way, how long have you been waiting for your decision and is this your first application?