Yesterday I had to make the hardest decision I've made in a long, long time. I decided to exit my partnership for my fitness company. I can't get into details too much because of some potential issues I'm dealing with, but I can say it's been a nightmare. I wish I never would have closed Acid Splash Designs and just stuck to that shit. Would have saved me a lot of pain, anguish and grey hairs. I feel like I've aged 10 years in the last year because of how high my stress levels have been. This is most of the reason I have been so goddamn depressed. When you invest a lot of time and money into something and it doesn't work the way you thought or wanted, it's destructive to you in many ways. So now I'm trying to pick up the pieces and regroup. I love helping people and it's a shame I couldn't make this work. I saddened by it but I guess it's time for a new beginning and to reinvent myself. Fuck money. I've survived harder situations and I will this one as well. I have a level of calm and collected but at the same time, I am equally distraught and unsure of what the future holds for me.
The last several days have been the most stressful I've had since my father had cancer. I ate 5 klonopins in one day and passed the fuck out because I just couldn't handle it anymore.
"You may caress my harem of large velvety hammers any time".
- The Velvet Hammer