chuckjaywalk wrote:I'm empty.
You have my sympathy, I'm still recovering from my last (and it may well be may last) relationship.
She wanted a family (her late 30s me late 40s at the time) and I was happy to go along with it as I've got two daughters and an ex-wife and I wanted the chance for the whole Mum and Dad and kid/s thing which I missed out on as I was left looking after my older two when they were 4 and 18 months.
Everything was mostly fine until we had our daughter, but once she was born I became mostly surplus to requirements, and when I refused to consider a second child (at the time money was very tight, six months later it would have been fine) she stopped talking to me. She finally moved out two years later having barely acknowledged my existence in that time, communicating by FB message or written note.
A year and a half later I have reached a point where I'm beginning to come to terms with the situation (mostly due to a ridiculous amount of anti-depressants) and one of the best signs has been my purchase of a new amp and the acquisition of a number of pedals with which to amuse myself.
I still rarely go out (generally with my daughter and for her entertainment) but I am feeling a little better about myself and no longer feel like I'm merely a shell that looks like me.
So, as with the time my ex-wife left, time is slowly passing and things are slowly getting better. I doubt there's much anyone can say that will take away the pain, but if you can hang on through the worst of it then more often than not it will get better.
So my solution is: buy a BitQuest and wait. . . and take care of yourself in the meantime.