The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[popvulture]

It's funny because I also consider ILF part of my support system. I mean, I really do care about you guys. Otherwise I wouldn't want to drive 8-10 hours for a meet up! Wish I could meet everyone. Maybe some day.

I just get saddened because I've dabbled in a ton of different stuff and it seems like nothing ever pans out the way I planned. I'm 34 and will be 35 in July and I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. All I want is something stable that will feed my family without the assistance of my parents. Which I'm even more saddened by. Without them, I'd probably be living in an apartment with my family. My dad is wealthy and he has made it so that I can be somewhat successful even if I'm not trying but I'm always trying anyway. I don't want to be that guy who goes through life and doesn't work his ass off. It's important to me you know?

I've got a potential battle coming, so I need to prepare, but at the same time, I just am tired of fighting all the time. I would never hurt myself either. I just don't like the thought even popping in my head. So annoying as I thought I was mentally way beyond that.

Yep, I'm 37 and have been going through that "when am I going to grow up" thing for a long time now. Everything seems to keep in sort of a Groundhog Day state of repetition with jobs and relationships. I'm ready for a breakthrough but have no idea where to find it. I'm not going to stop looking of course, but nonetheless feeling so stagnant. I too am lucky to have parents I can rely on if I need to, but I also don't like doing it at all. So I feel ya. Same exact thing goes for hurting myself—never would, but it's nonetheless unsettling as shit when even a thought pops into our heads. As for being mentally way beyond that, we're all still growing up, always will be. That's one way I got a little peace with some of the issues I've had with my dad—every day's a new day for him and he deals with things he's never dealt with before, just like we all do. I feel like we're always kids underneath, and that's not a bad thing. So anyway... big ol' hugs . Love y'all.

[comesect2.0]

woke up spitting dark purple blood....my teeth suck...

[fcknoise]

An hour ago I was too upset to post, but I basically got fuckloads of more work to do on my thesis before it's approved. But you know, whatever. I learned a lot and failure is the road to success etc etc

[Invisible Man]

Sorry Brandy. Most of these revisions turn out to be power plays...someone gets a bee in their bonnet, you never get to find out why. Let me know if I can help or if you wanna vent.

[Disarm D'arcy]

Hang in there, Brands. It'll be done and forgotten super soon.

[comesect2.0]

Gonna get my teeth removed, need to get my license, a place of my own, a job....it's all impossible with no cash in bank no friends in town

[The Eristic]

Letter from Kaiser Permanente today:

"Hey,
you didn't make enough last year to get any help with your health insurance this year, so your $25/month is now gonna run you $400/month, and don't even think about telling us about your preexisting condition. Also, you live in a state that hates poor people and you happen to be a single male in your 30s with no children, so no Medicaid for you. So, uh, please enjoy us raping you or enjoy your tax penalty and/or complete inability to purchase insurance depending on which way the pieces of shit in Congress go.

Sincerely get fucked,
KP "

Guess I gotta try to get Disability (as I do actually have a condition that qualifies), but I can guarantee nobody here will know or understand anything about it and it'll be a massively drawn-out fight just to get practically worthless coverage. So much for my 2017 gear goals.

[comesect2.0]

FTW.

[jrfox92]

I still haven't paid Social Security the money I was supposed to set aside for my former employee (who I had to let go last year because I have no fucking money and too many bills) because I have no fucking money and too many bills.

Literally every time I get money I find out there's someone else that wants it or else I lose my house, car, teeth, utensils, etc.

The only upside is the first employee I hired last year (that lasted only a month before she just decided she didn't feel like coming in to work anymore one day) was always paid in full so I don't have to worry about that.
Also, I probably don't need to worry about taxes this year because I know for a fact we did not make a profit since this year was spent unfucking up the reputation the previous owner created and, basically, learning how to run a business at the age of 19/20.

[fcknoise]

Hang in there, Brands. It'll be done and forgotten super soon.

Sorry Brandy. Most of these revisions turn out to be power plays...someone gets a bee in their bonnet, you never get to find out why. Let me know if I can help or if you wanna vent.

Thanks dudes. I mean, in retrospect we did do some sloppy, lazy choices, and everything that has to change is basically in one chapter, the actual anaisys and presentation of the data. It'll be alright, it's just a little bit frustrating.

[jrfox92]

So, I'm insanely tired, mentally, but that means that I've become so much more cleverly sarcastic in the last 24 hours.
I'm not 100% sure whether that's good or bad but it's definitely interesting.

[waltdogg]

oh man i know that feeling so well today, im so exhaused that being a sarcastic asshole to people is actually amusing.

[jrfox92]

I've destroyed half of Facebook with my sarcasm over just the last 12 hours.

[waltdogg]

honestly, i dont see how i havent been fired yet. im a sarcastic dick to everyone.

edit: got written up for being unwilling to make a customer's bass unplayable today. so. fucking. done.

[UglyCasanova]

Forgot to get a ticket for the subway. Got caught. $110 fine.

FUCK